the parade of sleepless nights never ends . nostalgia never ends . wait never ends . we are apparently nothing but simple souls in complex bodies . our simple soul is unable to take the burden of our problems hence we put it on our complex body's most important part-brain . i am sitting and staring at my bookshelf , wondering if these books were some alternate reality which only certain people had access to . a reality where career and studies and money were secondary . a reality where we could live the lives of all the protagonists from those books . in this evident + professional + practical world being diabolical is being smart . diabolical is actually a much more sophisticated word than its meaning , the meaning is " devilous " or "satanic" which is kinda dramatical . isn't it ? a better yet more realistic thing is to create an alter ego , welcome schizophrenia into your life , it will be just like having all your books come to life , imagining wh...