BLURRED VISION

Our friendship was not for centuries or decades , it was for a handful of years . But that's all we needed . I was the first bench nerd until you came and turned me into a last bench bunker . Never knew the girl with a pretty handwriting would be an integral part of this nerd bitch's life . Those long hours in canteen seemed endless , all the gossips and discussions started there . I think looking back now ,you changed me as much as I changed you . You introduced make up into my life and I introduced sass into yours . You introduced emotions and I diluted yours . Two months of friendship and you were forcing me to accompany you for a fest which I hesitantly had to agree to , who knew that would be the first of many ? After that I may have hesitantly agreed to all the events you forced me to accompany you but  now I know if it wasn't for your persuasive stubbornness I would have hardly had any memories . I am not perfect , but you were close to it . The girl with a heart...

It was just like any other day , the Sun had risen at its usual time , the morning made the usual jarring noise as it did every morning and the morning laziness had still not worn off . It took everything in my body to just push myself out of the bed . Then with groggy eyes I got ready and left for college without having a proper conversation with mom . The instant I stepped out of the house , I shoved my earphones in and started the walk towards the college . Funnily enough this walk was the best part of my day , my music and me , nothing else interrupted . But unfortunately I lived only 10 mins away from my college , so the blissful time was handful . As I reached the premises it was the usual , people swarming from one place to another , one floor to another , giving the effect of constant motion . I too swarmed with the crowd and made my way in the college and as every college student , I started searching for my friend a.k.a  " clique " , thankfully I found them in an i...

I was running I looked around , it was a dimly lit street with sparse traffic I had my earphones on , so i was in my own universe I kept on running , for miles it seemed I am not an athletic person , but something was different today It felt like i was running from something , but couldn't tell what exactly it was Was i running from decisions ? ambition ? love ? commitment ?  With each leap i took I felt the communication with my soul was closing But i didn't stop I wanted to leave my soul behind And run far away My life flashed before me the first day of college , his smile , our first date And then our ridiculous fights , the break up night Suddenly a white light shined over me .. and something hit me i was on the road and then there was complete darkness.... I could feel my body come to absolute rest with excruciating pain......

yes , lets talk about every girl's secret fantasy the "happily ever after " . What is it actually ? From what we have have heard it is about meeting a perfect prince charming in some far far away land , falling in love and getting married or riding off into the sunset together . Sounds like a fairy tale , right ? The story which we have heard is so perfect that we don't believe it , nowadays this fairy tale has taken its own twisted turn .  Lets face it there are no prince charmings , we are not damsels in distresses anymore , we have evolved into more practical beings . Today rather than getting  fairy tale or a happily ever after we end up with adjustments , settlements ,and cheating other halfs .  Even after numerous encounters with such tradgedies we still hope for a fairy tale but why ? Our doesn't let us give up on the hope of something better no matter how bleak the hope is. So we live on scarring our hearts one mistake after another ..........

For me magic is when i'm in your arms , and the time stands still Every nerve in my body comes alive , and my eyes long to meet yours . That's all i would ever want That's all i would ever need , For me magic is our short unrecognized love story , looking back i see we were never meant to be and here we are stronger than ever waiting for a forever . It's been years my love and still when we meet , it feels like the first time , your shy smirk , and the spark when our hands touch if that ain't magic i don't know what else is .......

oh darling we could have been legends , but all i see now is the flicker of a relationship we had it started with all the colors as it always does but now silence engulfs us . Our eyes used to talk in their own language , now i can't even look at your face I don't hate you I don't think I ever can , but does it make me weak ? No , baby it makes me a pheonix and a tad bit of an incurable romantic Even now when the dark nights are filled with our memories a smile of peace comes across my face There was a time when anger filled me , and the thought of a conversation with you enraged me but there was also a time when your one look would have made my day and simple pleasantries would give me sleepless nights , Now i feel nothing , the balance is reached , there is neither hate or love in my heart for you we had wonderful moments together but it took us a while to come to terms with the reality that those moments were all we were ever going to have some r...

Recovery, it's a word which is generally used in medical terms whereas the truth is we all are recovering. Recovering from heartbreaks , accidents , minor mishaps and the list goes on . But we don't want to accept it , to ourselves we are invincible , what is it with the human mind ? Ella was recovering , from a lot of things . Sitting in silence was her own piece of heaven but the world doesn't allow you to have your own heaven . To remain social , she pushed herself , interacted , made jokes , to everyone she was just the girl next door , someone to rely on .And then came Matt , slowly sinking into her life , clawing into her brain , broke her wall and freed her . Matt was the popular guy , the one who is the school captain as well as a topper , he met Ella when he was shifted to a new division and was surprised to see she didn't fall for his charms , rather showed an expression of disgust . Matt was in awe of her , she was like a breath of fresh air in his monoton...

Movies have always had it easy . One wrong step and there is always a 're-take' , only if life would have been so forgiving . We all are handicapped due to our choices , all of us are waiting for one 're-take' , same was for her . Walking along the same roads made her feel more empty , seeing the old pictures and the long texts made her feel more helpless , sometimes you just have to let go but  little did she know that the mighty power of the universe was not done with her .In the same way , he was equally devastated but being the 'man ' he had to make sure to never show it . The argument between them soon ended , and then came the result  - silence . And with lungs full of ego and heartS full of dread , the silence continued . They missed each other , but friendship always has lost to ego , didn't it? Both of them waited for a call which was never going to be dialled and a message which was never going to be typed . Silence continued for days , weeks , m...

trngg ! trnggg ! Half awake she desperately searches the source of this irritating noise , and she does .It was her phone , she forgot to keep it switched off and now she has to pay the penalty . It was Aaron  texting her , trying to apologize but she was so done . After years and years of going through the same shit , she was finally over all the drama , she kept on ignoring all the apologizing . Now she was fully awake at 2:28 am without a soul to entertain her and her mood completely drained . So she decided to go have a little "pick me up " . Making her way out of her cozy bed , she went to the window sill and sat there , admiring the lit skyline of the city , then she slowly searched the shelves near the window and behind the teddy , inside her old pouch was her pack of cigarettes . She lit one up and returned to the window sill , she was at peace . After all nothing was more calming to her than the panoramic view of the complete skyline of the city and a pack of light...